Nothing

I feel ashamed of needing
I feel ashamed of wanting
I run away forever because I took your help
So that was bad I know so because I spread my pain
I am alone forever so I wont breath your breath
I take away the calmnes of all the life I meet
I only give my sorrow in forms that I wont speak
I only speak of me because I feel so lonely
I wish that I could see beyond this sea of sorrow
That always stays with me
My chest concave and tiny
My legs skinny and hiding
My belly large and weak
My teeth disorganized
Cant smile or you'll see
My face a little fuzzy is what nature gave me
My soul remains in hiding behind this ugly skin
Alone in New York City
Trying to be happy
The only things I have that always stay with me
It's suffering and loneliness
It's all that I can give
I walk around so scared that I will never be
I loose all that I gain because I don't know me
My skin is getting softer and time is running out
Mother don't bother calling
There is nothing I can give
Everyone just leave me
And save yourselfs from me
My beauty gone forever
My soul lost in a dream
I just can't quite believe
Where my hand writes for me
I'm in a strangers home
Surreal like Dali
This is not art is pain
So run away from me
Alone just like Martirio
The white walls closing in
I can't be left again
But I know that I'll be
You left me, now you are
part of an ugly streak
"Alone alone all all alone
Alone... alone by the sea"
My breath is getting weaker
The white walls closing in